| Today sucks.
Tomorrow sucks worse.
My schedule for today..........
Study like fuck.
My schedule for tomorrow..........
7:30-10AM- Music Theory II final
10:30AM-1PM- English final
4:30-7PM- Italian final.
Fuck.
I'm not excited...
But, I'm going to make it.
As much as I stress, I know I will survive.
*sigh*
Back to Italian... later!
jordan.
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| Holy fuck.
Wow... just... holy fuck.
It's ridiculous, and words don't really describe it.
*shudders*
The guy who did the shootings... his description fits my old roomie, Andrew Bledsoe, to a tea. He was awkward. A loner. A Korean-American. And if Andrew did this... he would have started with me.
This hits a little closer to home when you think about it that way.
I just hope stuff stays calm and everything... after stuff like this, usually there's a bunch of copy-cat attacks to get press coverage and attention. So... *shrug* We'll just hope that everything stays alright.
There's just so much shit to say... and Xanga doesn't do it justice...
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| It's gay pride week, and KU's all decked out.
Hash especially. The front steps were all chalked a different color like a rainbow... until it rained last night... and the lights that shine on the building are a rainbow... it looks kinda cool when you just look at it.
But I hate it.
Firstly... am I the only gay person in the world who hates the rainbow flag? What an obnoxious and flippity design choice. How are we expected to get any respect in the world when John Fagzorz is marching down the street in drag waving a rainbow flag? It's too playful to be taken seriously. Fags just like colors... I get it. I like colors... yay... whoo. Awesome. But could we possibly choose a different flag that might get us some respect? Maybe? That'd be great thanks...
Also... just because someone lives in Hash... it does not mean that they are teh fagzorz. Aight? I know that most of them have no problem with gay people, but I just feel like we are just further perpetuating the stereotype that Hashies are total ass-pirates. Nothing was decorated for black history month, or for women's history month... but SHIT! There are a bunch of gay people in charge of what goes on in Hash, so DAMMIT! We're gonna have RAINBOWS!!!!
I love my boyfriend. I do. I love him with all of my heart and he's one of the greatest things that's ever happened to me, but I don't need to wave a flag, kiss on wescoe, or go to a drag show to be gay. Can't I just be normal and happen to like boys instead of girls? People don't get it, and it's due to all of this other bullshit that happens that it's that way. Suzie McCockenstein, the local drag queen and Celine Dion impersonator, is futhering stereotypes and it really fucks with my life. Maybe if we just acted like NORMAL HUMAN BEINGS for once... then people would leave us alone.
When blacks wanted the same respect as white people, what worked? They had protests and used CIVIL DISOBEDIANCE. We could just be DECENT PEOPLE and it'll get better.
Ugh... I just hate it. Other gay people get mad at me for not being as vocal about my gayness as they are... but I'm just trying to live my life without getting the shit kicked out of me. I want to get a job... I want to have a good partner... I want to live my life like any straight couple... I just want to be normal.
Don't get me wrong... I like being gay. I love it, and I'm proud of who I am... but does the line of normality blur when your sexual preference changes? And if it does... should it?
I'm sorry for rambling... this is one thing that really gets me worked up and pissed off.
I'm hungy... I think I'll eat something and then go to Ad Astra singers. Hooray!
I don't know... just something to think about...
jordan.
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| I love Encore.
It's my birthday.
The end.
jordan.
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| You ever get those times where it feels like ALMOST nothing is going right for you?
That's me right now. I feel like with everything I do for school, I am slapped in the face right back from it.
Every time I try to get better, it just explodes.
Ugh.
SOME things are going right, however. And they make me very, very, very happy! ^_^
Meh.
This is me attempting an entry.
I'm sorry it's disappointing.
=P
jordan.
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"Because I know how the song ends. The wavelength drops to zero. So I'd better groove while I've got the time."
